Thursday, February 07, 2008

What do you say when there aren't any words that work?

Everyone thinks I need to talk about what's going on. That assumes there's actually something I can say. Talking hasn't helped. Yelling didn't help. Cajoling, coddling, denying, confronting, supporting, loving; it hasn't helped. The tears hurt. My eyes are so worn out that they don't want me to cry anymore. The problem isn't that I'm not okay with everything, the problem is that my being okay with everything has lead to more pain. I want to scream, yell, punch things, throw stuff; but all that comes is a whimper. I just want my daddy back.

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